Monday, December 14, 2015

Conversation With Mom 43

Hello Mummy, 


Do you remember this Mummy? It was one raya when we were all still together. I miss those times Mom. Times when you were still a part of our lives.

I dreamed that dream again. The one where you came back to life and not know that you've been dead. Where I had to tell you that Mom, you died but then you came back to live and you would say I've never left Adik.

I don't know why I get that same dream all the time. Maybe it's because I wish you are still around.

Sometimes I still get moments when I would turn around expecting you to be there. Like I wanted to say something to you only to then remember you are no longer with me. 

I miss you Mom. Isn't it supposed to get easier with time?

I don't know. I still miss you as much. Still hurts as much thinking of you being gone. I love you Mommy. Always have and always will.

Thinking of all the hugs we have shared and needing one right now so bad that my arms are aching to hold you again.

I love you. I miss you. Keeping you in my mind and heart and bringing you around with me everywhere I go.

Bless your soul Mummy. R.I.P. Al-Fatihah.